A slight stir...

I was infected with sore throat last Friday after work out in gym, slowly the flu & cough came over the weekend. I tried to suppressed the sickness at first with lozenges & clarinase but it erupted eventually.

This morning I went back to work as usual not knowing it will caused slight stir in the office with my trumpet nose, hollow voice & fever. My colleagues stayed away from me when they got to know I was down with flu; worrying that I got H1N1 flu that might contagious. (seriously, i was a bit scared too; coz i've nearly all the symptoms of H1N1) You can see how media influence people...haha. I ended up sitting at my cubicle with only move around when I needed to go toilet. (sorry man! didnt mean to scare u all.. ;p)

There were some urgent matters needed to solve by today ;I managed to pull myself till 6pm & headed straight to the clinic. The doctor did a round check; was relieved that it was just the weather & me being over doing my exercise lately.

So in the end I was sent home to rest instead of attending my gym session & have to take quite a number of pills that look like M&M but taste like bitter gout.

When A Door Closed, Another Door Open

Three more days left for me to bid farewell to the company i'm working now. I've not gotten any job at the moment, but probably take this time to do things that has been pending for awhile. You might be wondering what the h*** am i thinking, resigned without a secure job in hand & economy crisis is happening everywhere. I can only say, $$$ is an issue in this company & i've no ground to stay on anymore.

So...what's next??? Seriously...I dont know. I keep my option open for now. As long that i've enough $$$ to survive until my next step. I hope God will guide me through.

Last nite i was sitting infront of my desk writing down "To Do List" for next week onwards, I'm not bored being jobless though...haha..I guess the first thing in mind, i can have a good sleep & need not worry of being late to office..haha.The nearest plan is that i'll be helping my sister this coming PC Fair, as well as preparing the meals for her staff..of course is part of business lo..haha. Do come & support my sis ya!

Something off record, I was talking with two Raymonds few days back. Few of us in the gang are highly unemployed at the moment, Raymond Ng actually suggested Dr Ray to form a group in Facebook carrying the title "Highly Unemployed"...hahaha. I laughed! (What a crazy thought we have here...) Instead of worrying what will happen next & when are we going to be employed again, the thought of forming a group came in mind!!

Working Life

Working in a small scale company is very different from big company, there are plenty more work & issues one has to focus on. I always having perspective that whenever a person say so is just because they giving excuses of the incapability on handling their job well...not until I'm in their shoes....

I used to be in big scale companies with system controlled by ISO & so, individuals were assigned to certain work according to their expertise..but here in my current company which I've joined merely 5months, i've to be multi-tasker in almost everything...often enough, i've no choice but to spend more time in the office till late evening daily in order my in-tray clear for the day.

Lately, i realized my ability & strength are tested to the maximum...energy & focus were drenched & left to the minimum. I'm tired...tired of being not able to accomplish whatever i've planned, tired of not seeing the end results despite how hard i've worked, tired of not having enough skillful workmates to support.

Those who knows me, they knew i'm not a perfectionist...but when i set my goal...i'll atleast work hard towards acheiving it. I get frust seeing my situation now in the office...is like kayaking against the water going upstream..where i'm i heading to??? where gone my motivation??? i wonder..